life is too precious to devalue by living without hope

Despite the pain and sadness of the past week or two, my life is going marvelously.
I ran my first production meeting for The Crash Project yesterday. It went brilliantly, if I do say so myself. I had information packets (three hole punched and in binders!) complete with notes, agenda, contact sheet, and schedule. It would [...]

oh oh oooh, the right stuff

Everything is complicated.
On my trip last summer one of my professors told us that there are only two things to remember always: it’s more complicated than that; and it’s different in the South.
I think I want to leave here. I want to do something else. I’m happy with my life and what I’m doing, but [...]

Christmas Eve is coming soon

I know there are plenty of people out there in the world who go to church only a few times in a year and tonight is one of those times. If you happen to be one of those people, please make a space in your prayers for Chelsie. If you aren’t one of those people, [...]

night time sharpens

My dad and I went out to breakfast this morning. We had a conversation about Chelsie and pain and suffering…
I’m sick. Ill. Unwell. Under the weather. Sore throat, low fever, achy achy. My back still hurts from striking Funky Butt on Tuesday. Chiropractor next week I think.
Finished my Christmas shopping today. Good presents for everyone [...]

dreaming

I had a night full of dreams… My end-of-the-world dreams have started up again. Every time I feel distant from my people I begin to dream of catastrophes in which I am alone and far away. I also dreamt of Chelsie last night, of course. She was in my car, really banged up, and so [...]

yikes

I went home last night and spent the evening distracting Hannah from her homework. I look forward to next week. I intend to stay in bed through most of the daylight hours. If only we still had pay-per-view at my house… As things are now I suppose I’ll have to either watch movies I own [...]

relentless

Andrew’s home.
Sarah’s home.
Amanda’s home.
Bill’s gone.
Show closed.
Contract for me at Interact.
Good, bad, bittersweet, exciting… normal.
Chelsie is in the hospital.
Awful and strange.
Chels was driving home from Andrew’s early Saturday morning when she was struck by a speeder running a red light. Her car was pushed off the road. A police officer witnessed the incident and was able [...]

100

Here I am, once again…
I had two shows on Saturday and I was really fuckin’ tired. In fact, I missed three cues during the matinee. Eriq seemed mostly furious. He called me out during notes like he was rebuking a teenager. I’m stuck between knowing I deserved it and resenting being patronized. In most of [...]

i don’t know how this is going to work…

unbelievable. the past month is going to be difficult to put in a blog. i’m afraid that’s why i’ve been so pathetically absent from the interwebs. there’s to much to get into and so i haven’t even tried. i’ll dive into what i can now.
in no particular order of importance:
Live at the Funky Butt Jazz [...]